YOU JUST DON'T KNOW WHO I AM :)

OKAY FIRST, I WROTE THIS BLOG, IT CAME  FROM MY HEART. SINCE STANDARD ONE I'VE NEVER FELT A TRUE FRIEND'S LOVING. UNTIL ONE DAY, I MET THIS GIRL AT THE SAME CLASS. I REMEMBER IT, WE ARE STANDARD ONE THAT TIME :3 WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS FOR 8 YEARS. ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE HER. BUT SHE NEVER CARE BOUT ME. I WAS CRYING WHEN WRITING THIS BLOG. MY FRIENDS LOVE TO COMPARE ME WITH OTHERS :') THEY SEEM LIKE BEING FORCED TO FRIENDS WITH ME. IT REALLY HURTS. I JUST KEEP THIS SECRET. FOR 10 YEARS I'VE BEEN HIDING IT. NOBODY KNOWS IT. INCLUDING MY BEST FRIENDS. I DON'T KNOW THEY REALLY HONEST TO FRIENDS WITH ME. BUT I JUST KEEP IT. I'M SORRY IF I WROTE IT AS THIS BLOG. I COULDN'T STAND IT. BUT I'M HAPPY WHEN YOU GUYS HAPPY. I REALLY LOVES MY FRIEND. BUT THEY NEVER DO :) BUT ITS OKAY. THAT'S STRENGTHEN ME MORE. MY 8 YEARS BESTFRIEND SUDDENLY ACCUSING ME STUFF THAT I'D NEVER DID. SHE MAKE ME CRY. I LOST MY APPETITE. I PRAY TO GOD. AND FINALLY I BROKE OUR FRIENDSHIP. THE FIRST FEW MONTHS, ITS VERY TUTORING. EVERY NIGHT I HAD TO LOOK AT OUR PICS AND CRIED. UNTIL MY MUM SCOLDED ME. BUT ITS OKAY. SHE JUST DON'T KNOW :) ITS NOT EASY TO FORGET A PERSON WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING BOUT YOU. UNTIL NOW I STILL CAN'T FORGET HER :) JUST BECAUSE OF ONE MISTAKE, IT LEADS US INTO THIS. I REGRET. I'M SORRY. BUT HE HAVE TO MOVE ON. I KNOW I CAN'T FIND A BEST BUDDIES LIKE YOU. WE SHARE OUR SECRETS, TEARS, SWEET AND BAD MEMORIES. WE EVEN TRAVEL TOGETHER. I'M SORRY. YOU'VE CHANGE.